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Snickerdoodles are the best

This is one of my favorite cookies ever.

Snickerdoodle

This is the snickerdoodle recipe that Marguerite Render Barre used.
Course Dessert, Snack
Cuisine American, German
Keyword Cookies, Family Favorite
Prep Time 15 minutes
Servings 24 Cookies
Author Marguerite Render Barre

Equipment

  • 1 Measuring Spoons
  • 1 Measuring Cup
  • 1 Large Mixing Bowl
  • 1 Wooden Spoon
  • 1 Spatula
  • 2 Cookie Tray
  • 1 Cooling Rack

Ingredients

  • 1/2 Cup Margarine
  • 1/2 Cup Butter
  • 1 1/2 Cup White Sugar
  • 2 large Eggs
  • 2 3/4 Cup All Purpose Flour
  • 2 tsp Cream of Tartar
  • 1 tsp Baking Soda
  • 1/4 Tsp Salt

Cinnamon & Sugar topping

  • 2 Tbsp White sugar
  • 2 Tsp Cinnamon

Instructions

  • Cream the margarine, butter, eggs and 1 1/2 cups of sugar in the bowl.
  • combine flour, salt, cream of tartar, baking powder
  • stir all together into creamed mixtured
  • shape into 1" balls.
  • Combine cinnamon & Sugar together into topping
  • roll balls in sugar & cinnamon topping mixture
  • arrange on ungreased cookie sheet
  • Bake 400F for 8-10min.

Notes

This is one of the classic cookies in our family.

The Anstey Family Christmas Breakfast Treat

The first recipe I thought to add to my online collection of recipes was this one. This one is the recipe that my mother made every single Christmas of my youth.

This is the one that my wife asked my mother for when we first married and started making thereafter.

This is the one my kids grew up having every single Christmas as well.

Last year, not for the first time, we couldn’t immediately find the scrap of paper that has endured all these Christmases. Interestingly, it’s not the first scrap of paper, because the one we’ve been using as emailed on a Christmas even shortly after we bought this house.

It’s an emotional thing, the memories of food.

Sour Cream Coffee Cake [Jewish Coffee Cake]

Nana FItzgerald's recipe, most often made by Mom
Prep Time20 minutes
Cook Time1 hour
Total Time1 hour 20 minutes
Course: Breakfast, Dessert
Cuisine: American, Jewish
Keyword: Coffee Cake
Servings: 12
Author: Phyllis Fitzgerald

Equipment

  • Mixer
  • Spatula
  • Bundt Pan optional
  • Tube pan Optional

Ingredients

  • 3 cups Flour
  • 1.5 cups White Granulated Sugar
  • 1.5 Sticks Margarine [6oz]
  • 1.5 tsp Baking Powder
  • 3 Eggs large
  • 1/4 tsp Salt
  • 1/2 tsp Baking Soda
  • 1 tsp Vanilla Extract [Grampie Durgin's if you have it]
  • 1/2 pint Sour Cream

Topping

  • 1/4 cup sugar
  • 1/2 cup walnuts
  • 1 tbsp cinnamon

Instructions

  • cream the margarine and sugar
  • mix in eggs
  • add dry ingredients
  • add sour cream
  • add vanilla last
  • mix until batter smooth
  • prepare bundt pan — using crisco or margarine and flower to prep pan
  • half batter in pan
  • cover with 1/2 the topping
  • add rest of batter on top
  • cover with the rest of the topping
  • put in oven for 1hr
  • cool on wire rack for at least an hour

i wanted

i wanted to write a poem
about the moon
before it got too fat
and fell all silvery from the sky

but i am god
and being
god is hard work

i left the words
in favor of grace
and hope and other (even sillier) things
(like love)

the moon, she falls
again tonight
like a crust of bread
or an angel

i ask creation for a moment
— it is so difficult
to be responsible
for everything right
(and wrong)

an empty book
remembers what I’d have written
and leaves me
holier than though
(laughing at myself — and of course
my own benediction)

i can’t right now

i was minding my thoughts
there about the melting snow
in close proximity to christmas

a not-quite-star pushing bright
through the not-quite cloud
— this is love

i wanted to think
but there’s no thinking
when the night hasn’t started

i reached for my camera
but remembered i can’t take a picture
of anything that’s not quite anything

the real clouds came in
before the real stars
and the darkness decided it was time

to let me think
all the things I shouldn’t think
— but it’s night, and everyonw knows
i will

When they asked me about art

She asked how old I was
When I started to write,
So I told her
It was seventh grade
when I discovered
Girls
Love poetry.

but art is art
it all changed after that.

The color, the texture,
The line, the taste, the weight,
The movement, the scent —
It was everything after that

Changing me
From tyrant to pig

The first poem became me,
And now, I tell her,
Now you are part of me too.

My Long Boring Thoughts on What Went Wrong for Cawley Supporters

 Listening to Teddy this morning, I felt bad for him. It really struck me how blind the Cawley side was to the reality of the situation. I give Teddy some credit for acknowledging that the final word has been had, though in my opinion he entirely missed the point: ultimately yesterday’s vote didn’t matter. The high school was never going to be built at Cawley even if all the votes and all the people wanted it there. This isn’t a case of “the people have spoken and the will of the people must be followed.”  The costs of the Cawley site, when looked at realistically, were always going to be something approaching double the cost of the Downtown site and the services, the access, the bussing, the environmental impact, the lawsuits, the number of properties that would have required eminent domain —  they always made it a really poor choice. And it was those flaws with the Cawley site which were so far beyond what they want to believe or are able to see, that meant Cawley would eventually “Fall under its own weight” as Jim Millanazo said.

One of the big problems in the debate had to do with the constantly moving target the Cawley side offered and the refrain of “We’ll find a creative solution.” The refusal to understand that the widening of Rte 38 was going to require as many as 12-15 properties be taken, and MASS DOT was going to require that, regardless whether we ‘wanted’ to do it or not is a huge point. The MEPA review that takes a year, and a LOT of money, on top of the high likelihood that the review could/would require finding a new site is another thing that was dismissed but was true.  The fact that we hadn’t got to the point in the process that such costs could be determined with accuracy doesn’t mean they should have been ignored.
 

It also didn’t help that the Cawley supporters were VERY selective about their cherry-picked math. The purposeful misdirection using the ‘total cost’ versus the ‘cost after reimbursement’ for example. Subtracting items from the Cawley side of the ledger that could just as easily be subtracted from the DT side (Special ed, bussing plan etc) ignoring infrastructure that would obviously be needed or demanding that it be considered as a separate thing (like the drainage issues that have been ignored for decades) — that sort of willful blindness to the realities of math and the politicizing of facts diminished their credibility and in a spiraling way as the Newspaper and WCAP amplified the ludicrous contortions they were doing to try to make it all fit.

 

Even when the best argument of the Cawley side was brought up, the years of construction are going to be awkward and difficult, it was often done with such nastiness they undermined their argument.  Thinking the Downtown site was better for the kids long term doesn’t mean that a person can’t be concerned about that process — it just meant that they thought the 5 years of construction were part of the cost of doing this. Instead the Cawley side frequently resorted to histrionics and exaggerated dangers. This might work rhetorically and it might move some voters, but it doesn’t improve a flawed site or diminish the many advantages of the central location of the other.
 
When Teddy spoke today about the vote in June he entirely missed the point that it too was a non-binding vote. That vote was a recommendation to MSBA — an organization that looks at everything, all the facts, the votes, the benefits, and the needs and compares it to their charter and makes a decision independent of the City Council’s vote. Despite what they said a couple of months ago about “the city knows best’ — that may be what they want to do, but if the city chooses a poor site (like Cawley) they will (and do) override the decision. The city council vote was never an ‘etched in stone’ thing and oddly enough, the MSBA could STILL say that Cawley is the better choice.
 
Today, in the aftermath of last night’s election, Teddy also brought up the eminent domain of the dentists and how he thinks they’ll settle on one of the other options — though with a 7-2 vote I don’t think he’s right, nor do I think the threats of the dentists are credible. The value of the property is simply not there, and there are very good viable options for them nearby at the Hamilton Canal district that tremendously limit the damage to their business. I’ll take the legal opinions of several lawyers over John Cox’s scare-tactics in this case. This was never really about eminent domain.
 
It was also interesting that they undercut their own arguments at times, for example, saying on one hand that “The renovation of the old building will just be paint and new ceiling tiles” while at the same time screaming about asbestos and construction disruption — implying that it’s a LOT more than just paint and ceiling tiles. The architects were extremely clear in meetings that this was Renovated to new — a down to the studs renovation that will go over the old building, reconfiguring parts and giving us a state of the art facility. They said it over and over, it was in the plans and records and meetings — and yet the Cawley side could never get past it. Here’s one big problem they faced — asking the question, “Isn’t new always better than renovated” in the city of Lowell is going to get you a big fat “NO!” from a large majority of the citizens. In fact, one of the biggest regrets in our city’s recent past is that we tore down so many of our boarding houses and other historic buildings. This was a huge part of why their movement failed. For the last 3 decades, we’ve rebuilt our city into a model other cities study and try to emulate — not by building all new buildings, but by renovating and preserving our old buildings. Hard to sell ‘new is better’ to a population that KNOWS it’s not.
 
Finally, I think the Cawley side missed the fact that they caused this giant wave to sweep over them. If they’d simply put the question on the ballot and changed their stance from “Cawley no matter what” to “What the people want” 10,000 people wouldn’t have signed a petition and thousands more than that received phone calls, and thousands more than that had a knock on the door to ask them to consider the reality of the situation. By making hundreds of volunteers engage thousands of citizens, they drove up the vote against them, and by digging in, they give no room to support them for other things.
 
Teddy and the Lowell Sun will surely keep banging the drums of what a big ‘mistake’ we just made, but this is an indication of how woefully blinded the entire Cawley side is to reality, and the delusions they fell victim to as they were trapped inside the echo chambers they created when they suppressed their opposition’s voices and points of view .

It’s this sort of blindness inherent to the Cawley point of view that saved the City of Lowell MILLIONS of dollars yesterday by killing the Cawley option before we went much further down that fatally flawed path. Unlike many people, I never really worried about the high school actually moving,  I worried about wasting millions of tax payer dollars on a really bad idea that would never actually work in reality.


I sincerely do not mean to be presumptuous. I have no expectation that any Cawley Supporter would agree with my reflections and beliefs — but I do want the historic record to consider some of these ideas. Soon, someone will write the book on this, and The Lowell Sun’s record might not entirely cover this point of view.

the truth is yes about chickens

the best strangers are more brave than me
covered in skin and wearing things that make them
look like real people on cool  autumn days
ready to love like madness, like cruelty
like lowell in the dark where the full moon is not welcome

they are good-seeming and all sex and filthy
under their finger nails under their socks
under the ground the places they walk alone
surrounded by loved ones and children and
ugly needs shoved between their bones

the best strangers are so brave they like me
covered in skin and wearing poems that make me
look like a real person in the crush of an autumn night
ready to be lunatic like another moon
like lowell in the morning when the river passes by without remark

they are good seeming and still filthy and sex
under the railroad bridge eyes cast at the ground
cast into the canal, cast at the places they want to be wanted
without their loved ones and children and
the lovely desire to be shoved between the bones of the place
and kept secret and lied about and used

the best strangers are much braver than me

Stephan Anstey: Introduction to a Poet

[Reprinted From a 2010 Interview in Calliope.blogspot.com:  Calliope Nerve]

By Connie Stadler 

You have probably not heard of the poet, Stephan Anstey, even though he is one of the most gifted and prolific writers extant. There is a good reason for that: he hasn’t wanted you to know.

Recently we, at Calliope Nerve, revisited what artists we would champion. It was decided that our voice would be in the name of art, pure and simple. While you will read of many poets and writers who have published extensively in book and chap form and more, we strengthened our commitment to celebrating all artists that add to the fiber of the tapestry of The Word.

Stephan Anstey has written over 10,000 poems; a comparative handful are published. He has written three books: 1,000, Dragon In My Closet, and Minor Gods and Jellyfish. While the first two are available through the website of his publication, Shakespeare’s Monkey Review, none have been published by any of the generally recognized small press publishers. It is put forward that the primary reason for this is the preference of the poet.

His corpus of works has been carefully read, and the poet interviewed at length.

Meet Stephan Anstey.

A writer with a voice shaped by multiform influences ranging from the cadences, imagery and woven truths of a Lewis Carroll, the pure sentience and unrelenting observations of the Bukowski who caustically spits on wasted sperm in Three Oranges, the lean, crystalline Japanese form poetry of Matsuo Basho and Kobayashi Issa, and much more. Thus while it may be said that every poet has an ‘original voice’ (a wildly overused term), some, we put forth brazenly and tautologically, are more original than others.

Anstey’s definition of the art form says volumes:

 

“Poetry is the fascist act whereby one human, with sheer force of will, inserts a thought or feeling of their choosing into the head of an unsuspecting audience with a callous disregard for the consequence a new thought might bring.”

First reaction: recoil, deliberate provocation? Second reaction: reflection. While many poets say, they relegate control over a piece when it is ‘freed’ to merge with a reader, is that truly so? If one makes the universal personal, and the personal universal, is power not an issue? If political polemics in their knee-jerk reductionism can enflame, what is the potency of the most hermetic form of word usage? In the process of creating a work, what type of artist writes to please an audience? With respect to that last question, most would probably be comfortable in saying, ‘no type of artist’. So if an entire concept, a condensed world view, a slice of the eternal is put forth, the artist cannot know what the reaction will be. It may be life affirming, life affecting, life destructive and all gradations in-between. It can have no impact. But the artist does not know this, and Anstey avers that the poet does not care about the possibilities of such synergy. If they do, they are out of synchronicity with the creative process. What becomes clear from the onset is that the hackneyed thought, the ‘appropriate’ response, is not part of this writer’s conceptual framework or lexicon. This singularity and distinctiveness of thought and expression are evident throughout his work.

The concept behind 1,000 was to write 1,000 poems in a month. It was accomplished. On one day, 132 poems were written. Again, the general association is that such proliferation of work cannot possibly yield quality art. This helps all who subscribe to ‘writer’s block’ feel better. The only way this can be assessed is by looking at the work; work Anstey acknowledges changed him.


can I have fries with that freedom?

The gold-leafing that adorns the top of my statehouse
makes me feel rich
until I remember the little flags
at the cemetery
that decorate the slabs of marble and granite
etched with the names
of the currency that paid
so dearly for the sparkle I enjoy.

when she told me

when she told me how her daughter died
my heart stopped
i have a daughter
who is breathing
and my heart beats
depend on her
every uncanned laugh
poured into me
with every argument
about her eye-color
shaken
and stirred
until, stronger than a martini
she intoxicates me
all of my driving
for greatness
or something near it
the terror of life
a single heartbeat
from a crash

hating haircuts

when my friend shaved his head
I shook mine.
not for the bits of graying hair
on the ground.
for the callous disregard
he had for all those tiny
specks of creation
that for a brief time
were him.


If this is fascism, than it wields a totalitarianism of somber reflection on the meaning and cost of patriotism, on the depth and evisceration requisite in loving, on the minutiae of those times of veneration that are so blithely missed. The currency of having the opportunity to live freer penetrates. Being an adoring father intoxicates the reader. Reverence for the vital which only this artist can see is placed in our hands in beautifully burnished poetic language and a lattice of structure so rarefied it almost escapes unseen. Anstey’s ‘tyranny’ leaves room for a reader to move through apertures of humanity and exposed soul; an excellent argument for ‘pardon’ and deeper descent.

His favorite chap-child is Dragon in My Closet.   The poet tells us why:

DIMC is my favorite mostly due to the fact those are the poems that I’ve read a few times and have gotten high-praise. They’re easy to read mostly and relevant to my audience. Binding and selling it made a lot of sense and definitely worked for me. I don’t think they’re ‘my best’ — but I do think they represent a certain vein of poetry I was writing for a long time. The overall theme of the Dragon in my Closet chapbook is an exploration of my relationship with the important relationships in my life. Myself (title work), my kids (Tigerlily), my wife, my grandparents, my community (I am still).

In reading the conclusion of I am still we are enveloped in a multitude of feelings. This is punctuated by the placement of those three words as stand alone statement observing a world without, a world passing by, a world that touches, a world that, sometimes, defies sense ‘in a blur of humanity dead/dying and newborn’. Thus, ‘my howls are silent’. Does the notion of imprisoned cries and the refusal to challenge the imminence of our eradication not pierce to core? Particularly when succored by such deceptively ‘simple’ (should the adjective not be distilled?), poignant verse.

I was still
thinking about my sister in Miami
enjoying 80 instead of 32 even
though she claims she misses home

even if home is long gone like Kerouac

and Ginsberg’s howl. she doesn’t think about

the beat or the way things move so damned fast

black and white

and every damned color

dashing by in a blur of humanity dead

dying and newborn

I am still

trying to figure it all out

sometimes it makes me crazy

I am not the best mind or even among them in my generation

my howls are silent. I go gentle into each good night

The title poem has a “to do list” hanging under a clock that ‘stopped at the precise moment I was born’, when the child-man was still free to dream of ‘flying machines and swords’. It reads:

“7 things I need to do before the end
a) eat a salamander
b) kiss a girl
c) catch a fish with my bare hands
d) go to south africa
e) leap a tall building in a single bound
f) write a book
g) see a dragon”

We travel a lifetime in this list, and then, in the realization of one goal, yet back again. For as Anstey shows us, the fallacy is assuming linearity in the journey, or perhaps it is but another illustration of the heart stopping child-like vision requisite in any great artist; the capacity to stare into a dark closet and watch miracles emerge.

As the author explains, the theme of his most recent compilation, Minor Gods & Jellyfish is, in part, the product of who and where he was when writing it, but also a focus on ‘… the relationship between life and higher power. There are a lot of poems in that collection that explore the question of faith and a relationship with God.’ The dedication is two-part, to his family and:

… to all those who care enough and believe enough and want enough to struggle with faith. Of all the virtues, I believe faith is the {most} difficult. I admire, respect and love anyone strong enough to dare it. So this one’s for you.

Here the poet soars as he delves into the cloud coverings that have reduced many to prosodic palaver. From I’m not brave enough for you:

In my defense, there are no trials, every butterfly is one chance

once spent (dollarless and destitute) this journey

is prosecuted. I am pocked with the craters

of gray daylight. I am dusty with dry humor

and the notion that we can dare music here

amidst the knowledge that love will grease the wheels

as the squirrels project us into lunar light.

Here is a created human being holding on to the trails of whimsy wind fall and the knowledge that hope is as evanescent as a yellow swallowtail alighting on poised finger, even as he mourns his disfigurement as a creation of any divinity.

In what is one of the penultimate poems of this volume, in what is as emblematic a revelation of the contribution this writer makes to art, the ‘poet’ confronts the concept that a literary god is the ‘source’ or the hope of spiritual redemption, or transformation, or sustenance for all of us who wish and wonder, and flailingly doubt and sometimes, even … pray.

Never mind, Bukowski’s still Dead

 

You know, sometimes, right at 2:23pm,

I want to kick Bukowski right in the balls.

 

Don’t misunderstand me, I love the guy,

and I agree with him on the value of 3 oranges.

 

But, I don’t care what he thinks: he ain’t God.

 

It’s not even that I believe in God,

which I might, not because the big questions are answered

but because, I can accept that they aren’t.

 

No, I can also accept that maybe God is just the hope

there are answers.

 

But dammit Bukowski, a poet can not be pliable.

 

Love is always a command.

Faith must be a dictum.

If we are our own God

then we are less than nothing.

 

Why we are here, I do not know

but it does not involve beer.

 

We not here for death, nor death for us,

trembling is not a reason

and love is no blanket for thoughts

or the dead.

naked drifting off to sleep

and so i sing tonight of quiet
of words i wish you’d said
i sing of things like diet
and how soon I will be dead

you smile sweet
you smile kind
you smile and i wonder
do you half-way mind?

my song is holy broken
my song is profane God
my song is almost spoken
so it always sounds quite odd

you sigh warm
you sigh dear
you sigh and i do too
because i know that you can hear

and so i sing tonight of silent
of words i can not dare
i sing of things like triumph
and i’ll never make it there

Remarks to Lowell City Council, May 16, 2017 [Undelivered]

I was originally going to give these remarks to the Lowell City Council tonight, however when they got to this item on the agenda, they decided to refer it to committee and table it until it’s time to do this.


Mayor Kennedy, City Councilors, thank you for the opportunity to speak to you tonight.

I’m here to speak against casting any vote tonight on the use of Eminent Domain in the development of a New LHS on the downtown site.  Regardless where you stand on this issue, now is not the time to make this decision. I would politely request that you Table this motion until after we have the information we need to formally select the very best option, the downtown site and option 3.  As it is, if this vote is taken to night it will be out of proper order. Since the site hasn’t even been selected, there is no actual reason for to acquire property.

Of course this isn’t really about Eminent Domain at all, this is a backdoor attempt to eliminate the best option for LHS and the city of Lowell.

This is about pushing away all other options to promote the choice of Cawley, a site which has far too many serious questions to move forward without other viable options ready. With all the Article 97 issues, with the costs of replicating fields, with the significant increase to bussing costs, with the required zoning changes to be able to build the required number of floors, with the concerns about space for parking, with the considerations required for the safety of students traveling in and out of the area, and the many other issues, Cawley is far from a perfect site and certainly not worthy to be the only option going forward. Most of all, we do not yet have the FULL costs of each option. As our State Senator Eileen Donoghue said today, we should wait until we have all information before any actions to eliminate options.

Keeping all of the options viable is even more important with the  inevitable legal issues that would come with the selection of the Cawley site. Not only are there possible civil rights questions due to the radically reduced access to the facilities for the majority of minorities in the city, there are the environmental issues due to the destruction of open & green spaces directly contrary to the MSBA’s founding charter, and there are legal process questions due to the improper, irregular, and obviously poor process we used, ignoring the Board of Parks vote, skipping a required Conservation Board vote and the choice not to hold public hearings on these issues.    There is a real possibility the EOEEA will reject the replication lands, or that the whole thing will end up in court and the Cawley site ruled out — and then having eliminated the possibility of eminent domain we will have gotten rid of what most believe is the best option. Even many (if not most) cawley supporters would agree option 3 is better than the other options and certainly better than nothing. With such very real risks of the Cawley site failing, ruling out an option now by eliminating the possibility of eminent domain risks hundreds of millions in funding.

Many on the Cawley side of this argument, wrongly and repeatedly compare this to the 1997 and 1980 renovations. Option 3, in particular, is nothing like them. The word ‘renovation’ is highly misleading as are the words, ‘we can’t just patch the roof and slap a coat of paint on it.’ Option 3 would tear down most of the existing structures and build entirely new buildings. The old building would be substantially gutted and rebuilt as well. We aren’t talking about patching a roof and putting on paint, we’re talking about investing hundreds of millions of dollars to have an entirely new complex. Talking about this like the 1997 or 1980 projects is highly disingenuous, and bringing up current problems within the current complex when discussing option 3 is as silly as bringing them up for the Cawley site. Whether it’s the significant costs of new science labs, or whether HVAC is required, or any of a hundred other legitimate features that need to be part the discussion and considered costs, these are NEW Building costs with either project  and it’s not about renovation or refurbishment.

The City Council, and in fact the whole city, need to stop with the provably false rhetoric that ‘a new build is better.’ This is evidently false. Lowell has been reborn and  is thriving in the bones of its old buildings. We are nationally renowned for our ability to see the vast potential to be new again and believing our history and our people make that investment worth doing.

Every single one of us needs to remember who we are: We are Lowell.

Look around this downtown area. Look around and see places like Perkins, LCHC, Boott Mills, Loft 27 and so many other places. Look at them and realize the high school is the same sort of opportunity and the same sort of new-build-old-bones project.

It is not acceptable to celebrate and cheerlead that history and all of those dozens upon dozens of amazing success stories when it suits you, and then when it doesn’t suit you, forget them entirely and talk about all the roadblocks to success. It’s not just wrong, it’s insulting to our many partnerships, the incredibly hard work we’ve done and all the resources we have invested to make this special city — this national treasure — a beacon of hope and preservation to other cities all around the country with it’s many stories of success.

So, please, table this distraction until the facts are in. There is absolutely no reason to vote on this until after the option is selected. In fact, ruling out options now risks the entire project and can only hurt the city.  We must all do our best to mitigate the anger and resentment, and the first step is to realize that everyone truly wants what’s best for the city of Lowell.